Day 30 – your favorite song.
How could anyone possibly choose just one favourite song? I couldn’t even choose one favourite artist! It’s fairly obvious that I love The Beatles, and this was one of my early favourites that I tried to teach myself to play on the piano.
I love the twisted and twisting lyrics, the strange combination of words and the distorted images that spring to mind as you hear the words and try to envisage what it all means. Have you ever seen a ‘newspaper taxi’?
I’m also a massive Bowie fan, and I really like his earlier stuff. I love it all but I do find that I play a lot more of the early stuff more often. I also love to watch all the old film clips, some of them are so entertaining.
My favourite party and happy time song that most of my friends know that I go nuts for is Violent Femmes’ Blister in the Sun. We went to a Femmes concert a few years back at the Tivoli and it was one of the best concerts I have ever been to! Even though Gordon looked like an accountant, it still sounded incredible.
Day 29 – in this past month, what have you learned?
* That I definitely do want to go back to uni, and that I should stop talking myself out of it.
* That I am valued by my friends (didn’t really learn this, but it has been reinforced).
* That I do have a strong support network of family and friends, that I do want to share my problems with.
* That I don’t need to carry this much guilt with me all of the time. It is proving difficult to shed, however.
* That the only thing stopping me from being who I want to be is me.
Day 28 – a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Now, my hair is much, much shorter and back to its natural colour. In this picture I had just done Shave or Colour for a Cure for the Leukaemia Foundation, as my husband’s grandfather had passed away the previous month. I’ve also now got new glasses, which are much more comfortable. Otherwise, I’m pretty much the same.
Day 27 – why are you doing this 30 day challenge.
This is feeling like deja vu – I’m sure I’ve answered this one already!
I decided to do this challenge to try and increase the amount of blogging that I did. I also liked the idea of a given topic (not that I stick to them very well, I always seem to go off on a tangent) to blog about. If left to my own devices, I seem to get a bit ranty and there’s only so much of that that anyone will read. I like the concept of blogging, it’s nice to think that people who don’t know you and love you will read what you have written and still have some nice things to say.
I’ve always enjoyed writing and wanted to write. My best friend from primary school and I would get together most weekends and discuss plots and characters, good names, possible settings, and eventually, write. Melissa was much better than me, I think she managed to finish a few books, whereas I managed to start quite a few. Rarely managed to get too far, I tended to ramble and then worry too much about how it looked or sounded, rather than just getting it down. That’s why I like the idea of NaNoWriMo. It’s all about getting the words out – worry about the rest later. I had thought that I could do it this year but November snuck up on me (like every other month this year) and I just have too much else on to be cranking out 1667(?) words every day. Maybe next year.
Yet again I have excelled myself and managed to stray from the topic. Essentially, I just want to write.
Day 26 – what do you think about your friends.
Well obviously they are awesome because they are friends with me! But they are awesome for reasons other than that. We share interests, we are alike in some way, we enjoy each other’s company. We have a good laugh together. Most importantly, they accept me for who I am (even when I don’t) and give me a boost when I need it. And I do the same for them. We all need a boost occasionally. They back me up when I am having problems, and they are always up for a chat. It doesn’t matter if the news is good or bad.
I may only have a handful of close friends, but I wouldn’t exchange any of them for the world.
Day 25 – what I would find in your bag.
What wouldn’t you find in my bag? My day-to-day work bag has tons of crap in it. I always have my headphones, at least four different lip balms, a few pens and a USB stick. I also carry a spare pair of glasses (just in case, I could never get far without vision), deodorant, panadol and sunscreen. And then there are the essentials – keys, wallet and iPhone.
I’ve always been a big reader, and always used to carry books with me. Now that I can put books on my iPhone, I’ve become very lazy and hardly ever carry books anymore. But as convenient as it is, reading books on the iPhone is just not the same.
I also always carry my water bottle with me. That’s mostly so that I never have to buy drinks while I am out and about. Bottled water is an absolute rort, and it probably comes out of the tap anyway. Not to mention the environmental issue of all of those empty bottles that aren’t being recycled.
So how much stuff do you carry around everyday and how much of it is necessary?
Day 24 – a letter to your parents.
If I were to be brutally honest with this one, it would take me the best part of a month and I suspect that it would not be particularly interesting to most people. Perhaps I will just do the abridged version.
I do love you, despite what you seem to think. I just have trouble letting go of so many memories, and I find it hard to forget things that have happened.
I miss you and I do think of you everyday, but I still don’t think that I am strong enough to be in contact with you. I still have too many unresolved issues that I want to bring up and you don’t want to talk about. I also feel as though I can’t handle the bullshit.
I suspect that you see a lot of my Dad in me, and you resent me for that, as he has hurt you so badly in the past. But please remember, that I am not him, as much as I may remind you of him. And just because you don’t want anything to do with him, doesn’t mean that I don’t, he is still my Dad and I love him too.
I hear that you are happy and are finally with a man who truly loves you and cares for you. I am so happy that you have found that, you deserve a good and happy relationship. You always say that life is too short, and that is true, but it doesn’t make all of the past disappear.
I love you
I appreciate how much more we have been sharing as the years have progressed. There are things that we talk about now that I would never have thought that you would have been able to discuss with me. And even though I’m living my own life in a different town, I still feel as though I am part of the family, just living elsewhere.
I would like to see your marriage become a little healthier, I think you both need to learn to talk to each other without bickering all of the time. I think that may have a bit to do with why the girls are often arguing, and I think it has a lot to do with how disrespectfully Prue speaks to and treats Carol. She copies you so much.
You’ve always been very dependable, and you would do anything for your family. You have given me a very strong work ethic, and impressed on me the importance of being reliable and consistent. I know that you will always be there for me, no matter what. I’ve been able to make my own way in the world, and although you may have tried to dissuade me from some of my decisions, you’ve always been there to back me up.